Ok so, who doesn't own a cell phone...

i'll tell you who....Jake Black....cause he left his at my house...(and the title is also lyrics from a Relient k song in case you didn't catch that).

alrighty so

this one is just gunna be a little update, cause sometimes i look at blogs like photo albums...it's always cool to look back and see how ignorant, naive, selfish, stupid, prideful, and childish i was.


and that's cool because it helps me realize that there is always room for improvement, no matter who you are


and hopefully when i read this a year from now i will realize how ignorant, naive, selfish, stupid, prideful, and childish i really am.

ok so recap a couple weeks ago... in youth we had an acoustic worship service led by the Holy Spirit...but lets go back a week

alot was bothering me that past week, and when i say alot...i mean alot of people...i was thinking in my head "well so-and-so did this-and-that and that just caused a bunch of problems for what's-his-face" and i was getting so mad at so-and-so and so i prayed to God and God showed me something very important...

"Don't focus on the criminal, focus on the victim."

and basically this means i need to focus more on 'what's-his-face' than on 'so-and-so'..(i know it's kinda confusing...but i'm obviously not going to use real names).

And that all came to me on my lunch break while i was in the acoustic room at guitar center. I was just playing some songs that had to do with what i was thinking about...and it was powerful...

yeah i was crying in the acoustic room at guitar center, but by the grace of God, no one walked in on me lol

so that sunday i was practicing the songs and all was going well...so before service i was playing the song "tear down the walls" by Hillsong United because the lyrics were the message that i was trying to get across to people

when worship started i shared the message that God placed on my heart...i said

i know there are some people here that feel like they don't belong, and i know there are some people that feel like there not good enough to get to God...well i just want to let you know that that's not true...God accepts us for who we are. All the songs that God placed on my heart have to do with his love.

the list was

Your love is extravagant
Amazed
Lead Me to the Cross
Wrap Me in Your Arms


and i got to Wrap Me in Your Arms....and God was telling me to say something to the people....

now those of you who have read my testimony know that this song is kind of sentimental in a way because this song is the song that i got saved to.

the lyrics
"there is a God who loves me
who wraps me in His arms
that is the place where i'm changed
and that's where i belong"
reminded me of my salvation, my testimony, where i was before christ...i remembered feeling rejected, broken and lost...i remembered my sin with drugs, my struggles with suicidal thoughts, my shame ...i remembered the story of the prodigal son...."while he was still A LONG WAYS OFF" i remembered that i didn't meet Jesus half-way....i couldn't make it half-way....i remembered what God said to me

"son i love you, i will always love you,i will love you when no one else loves you...I will love you, even when you don't love yourself"

and the night was awesome, people were getting into worship and it was amazing

and i remember at the end of the last song we sang "for you are holy"...and there was a high note that i couldn't hit with my voice, so when we got to that point i just stopped singing...


...and it was absolutely beautiful...i heard the people singing, connecting with God, worshiping God...and i broke down..cause that was the one thing i really wanted...to see people being changed by God's unconditional love...


wow and there is alot more so umm...i guess tune in next time...cause i didn't expect this one to be so long lol..