ummmmm K?

yeah so umm... i think i might blog more idk yet though...

but if i do i want to blog about the things that God has been teaching me...cause it's so amazing and i can't hold it in any longer...

but that's because no one can contain God's awesomeness

ok but lately God's been keeping my focus on 2 things
1. relationships
2. evangelism

i would have to say i struggle the most in those two areas...so God is turning weakness into strength...

before i go on i'm going to give a disclaimer...i'm not trying to tell anyone what's right or what's wrong...i'm just sharing what God has revealed to me...and i'm just typing what comes to mind (and heart)

ok so as far as relationships go the #1 thing that God is drilling into my head is that
Christ = Husband and Church = Wife

Eph 5:23- "For the husband is the head of the wife as Christ is the head of the church, his body, of which he is the Savior."

all of the suddon the entire Bible becomes a perfect Dating Guide lol

but seriously now there is a perfect example of what i'm supposed to do...and it's as simple as WWJD...but there is alittle more than that...it's What Would Jesus Do...for His church...

or what did he do...

he was willing to die for his church....

God brought to my mind a couple things...today in church i thought about Jesus carrying that cross up to Calvary...and it reminded me of a man walking up the aisle to be with his wife on his wedding day...

and like the veil that is lifted from her face...the veil in the temple was torn so that God can be with us forever and ever...

and when Jesus said "It is finished" it was kinda like he was saying "I do"

kind of a weird way of looking at things i guess...but for me it really puts Gods unconditional love into perspective.

another thing was last night i read the whole book of lamentations and i was reading about how the author was crying out to God about everything that was happening in Jerusalem

it was pretty brutal...the Babylonian army had surrounded the city making it impossible for anyone to trade or go anywhere for anything outside of the city...women were eating their own children to survive...people were starving to death...(the saddest verse was Lamentations 2:12-"They say to their mothers, 'Where is bread and wine?' as they faint like wounded men in the streets of the city, as their lives ebb away in their mothers' arms." and the whole time the Babylonian army mocked the city and it's people

Now we know how much God poured His love on the Isrealite people, He brought them out of Egypt and He delivered them into the promised land...The Isrealite nation was pretty much God's wife

The whole book of Hosea he talks about how being the God of Isreal was like being married to a prostitute...it's true!
God told Hosea to marry a prostitute named Gomer (i know...what a name right)
well she left him and sold herself into slavery and so Hosea bought her back and God used that as an example of Himself and Israel
which leads me to my favorite verse in that book

Hosea 2:16 "In that day," declares the LORD "you will call me 'my husband': you will no longer call me 'my master.'

God was revealing to the people that He was going pay the price to get them back....

...ok so...back to Lamentations now (forgive me for jumping around) but as I was reading the horrible things that were going on in Jeruselem...God spoke to me and said "That was my wife"...

...i dropped my pen on my Bible and i just started to cry...I was just so heartbroken to see the people that God loved so much...go through so much pain and suffering...even to the point of eating their own children...because they had turned their backs on God...and how after everthing that they had done...God didn't completely forsake them...

He still made a way for salvation...He still carried the cross up to the hill like a man on his wedding day...He still went through with it...


man...do i have alot to learn...

...yeah so more soon...i'm still ready to explode lol...