So i'm hyped up on Monster and I am nowhere near tired

Blog Time...especially now that i don't have to post this on twitter/tumblr/facebook now... just gotta tell the Myspacerz

anywho so yeah i dunno how long this one's gunna be...but i was just thinking today before work and i was thinking about grace

and i was thinking about how much I ignore grace... i mean really i do

as Christians (and we all do it... my self included to the umpteenth degree) we tend to think we are better than those who are unsaved because we are going to heaven...and in reality we aren't...

it was grace that saved me from where i was...honestly, before Christ, i was going to hell in a hand basket...i mean really i was no better than the worst of sinners...

so what gives me the right to point out the flaws in others...aren't they given the same grace that i was given...there is not one person on this earth who is beyond the grace and love of Christ..

i think i need to focus alittle bit more on showing and telling instead of pointing and judging...

Romans 2:1-4 "1You, therefore, have no excuse, you who pass judgment on someone else, for at whatever point you judge the other, you are condemning yourself, BECAUSE YOU WHO PASS JUDGMENT DO THE SAME THINGS. 2Now we know that God's judgment against those who do such things is based on truth. 3So when you, a mere man, pass judgment on them and yet do the same things, do you think you will escape God's judgment? 4Or do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, tolerance and patience, NOT REALIZING THAT GOD'S KINDNESS LEADS YOU TOWARD REPENTANCE? "

these verses make me tear me up...really they do...almost literally...basically it says "judging people is stupid"

we like to point out the flaws in other people and when people do the same to us we say "oh well that's different because (insert self-justification here)" and i really love the sarcasm in verse 4... "do you show contempt for the riches of his kindness, tolerance and patience"... honestly we should be happy to know that God has the ability, the love, the compassion, the power, the mercy, the grace, to love the most undeserving sinner...

and not only that....but to go as far as to call us His son (or daughter)....wow...

and it is God's kindness that leads us towards repentance...soo true

the truth is...i don't deserve life...and i most defiantly don't deserve life more abundantly...but that's God's love for you...

I guess I'll end with a quote i thought about while listening to music and thinking...

"The world takes everything for granted, we take everything for grace."







oh and btw...when i was typing this...i had a whole different idea about were this was going...and i was actually looking for a different group of verses in Romans...but then Romans 2 caught my eye....


there goes God... showing me that my plans are nothing compared to His...lol

lets see if this gets posted on tumblr

yeah so i have a tumblr now jdwayt.tumblr.com

anywho so this is what i've been thinking about

before/during work i was thinking about my life and all of it's flaws (well not all because there are to many to think of in just one day) and i was praying somthing along the lines of

"God just take me to a different state or a different church or a different job or a different school or a different whatever so i can get away from all the temtations i have"....for some reason i feel that if i have a 'fresh start' i will magically become a stronger, better, super-christian.

and God brought to my mind James 4:7 "Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you."

and i realized somthing...i'm not the one who's supposed to do the running....the devil is...

it says "resist the devil and HE will flee from YOU"... i know that God will help me get through my struggles...not just air-lift me out of them... because after all what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger...and that is true...

well anyways that's about it....just thought i would share it with you

Oh you bring...

it's a song by hillsong united...and it's really good...

and i guess as i'm listenting to it now i'm thinking about all the stuff God does for us...


like there are so many people that God is changing and it is amazing...like it's sooooo coool to see people my age and younger stand up for Christ...and just hearing the testimonies from those people is amazing...

ok so now for the thing that's been on my heart lately...


it's the issue of swearing...i don't know why it's been placed on my heart...but it has been...so i'm gunna talk about it...


ok so i was thinking about the issue of swearing cause i read somthing and it got my mind running and then there are always people at work who swear and then apologize for it...

and that get's me stuck sometimes...cause i don't know whether to say "i forgive you" and make them feel like i'm judging them and i don't want to say "it's ok" cause i don't want them to feel like it really is ok....

but Sunday night Matt read from Ephesians

and i read Ephesians 4:29
"Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs that it may benefit those who listen."


basically this is the closest verse to "do not swear" in the Bible...but we can't just look at it as "don't cuss" cause it says more than that, it says "Do not let ANY UNWHOLESOME TALK COME OUT OF YOUR MOUTHS"....and that got me thinking...

who am i to say what words are "good" and what words are "bad"...for example...

i don't swear...or at least by normal people's standards...but there are words i don't say infront of small children or people i respect highly

words like "douche" or "fag" or "hoe" etc...so i guess in a way i'm no better than the people who say "bad four-letter words"....so i can't really call someone out on that

i mean i would look like an idiot if i said "don't say bad words, douche"...

so i guess i have alot to work on...even in areas that it doesn't seem like i'm struggling but that's the cool thing about God, He's making me more like Him and less like the carnal man that i am

Fireworks on the 4th of July makin up the plans, up the plans that you made.

don't nobody care if there's no girl by your side, they're starin at the painted sky.



(the wedding lyrics)

so true...except it wasnt' the 4th of july today...but the point is


i had a great day today and yesterday...and i have had actually just a great time in general the past couple months





you see...about 3 months ago my dad got laid off from work...and they told him that he might not get his job back...and if that is the case...then i'll be moving somewhere far, far away...(possibly Texas or North Carolina)...and that was kinda sad...but i didn't really tell alot of ppl...and i'm glad i didn't...

it's really cool to hang out with people and know that they actually wanna hang out with you because of who you are...and it's amazing to know that if i do leave...then people will actually miss me lol...


but in all seriousness...i know i'll miss them too...and that's why i love days like today where i can hang out with my friends all day...


so yeah...i guess we find out Wednesday if i'm officially moving or not...


it's in God's hands too....that's what's cool about it...i know that whatever happens...

all things work together for the good of those who serve Him....(i don't know if i quoted that right)


but yeah...today was sweet...thanks guys

Ok so, who doesn't own a cell phone...

i'll tell you who....Jake Black....cause he left his at my house...(and the title is also lyrics from a Relient k song in case you didn't catch that).

alrighty so

this one is just gunna be a little update, cause sometimes i look at blogs like photo albums...it's always cool to look back and see how ignorant, naive, selfish, stupid, prideful, and childish i was.


and that's cool because it helps me realize that there is always room for improvement, no matter who you are


and hopefully when i read this a year from now i will realize how ignorant, naive, selfish, stupid, prideful, and childish i really am.

ok so recap a couple weeks ago... in youth we had an acoustic worship service led by the Holy Spirit...but lets go back a week

alot was bothering me that past week, and when i say alot...i mean alot of people...i was thinking in my head "well so-and-so did this-and-that and that just caused a bunch of problems for what's-his-face" and i was getting so mad at so-and-so and so i prayed to God and God showed me something very important...

"Don't focus on the criminal, focus on the victim."

and basically this means i need to focus more on 'what's-his-face' than on 'so-and-so'..(i know it's kinda confusing...but i'm obviously not going to use real names).

And that all came to me on my lunch break while i was in the acoustic room at guitar center. I was just playing some songs that had to do with what i was thinking about...and it was powerful...

yeah i was crying in the acoustic room at guitar center, but by the grace of God, no one walked in on me lol

so that sunday i was practicing the songs and all was going well...so before service i was playing the song "tear down the walls" by Hillsong United because the lyrics were the message that i was trying to get across to people

when worship started i shared the message that God placed on my heart...i said

i know there are some people here that feel like they don't belong, and i know there are some people that feel like there not good enough to get to God...well i just want to let you know that that's not true...God accepts us for who we are. All the songs that God placed on my heart have to do with his love.

the list was

Your love is extravagant
Amazed
Lead Me to the Cross
Wrap Me in Your Arms


and i got to Wrap Me in Your Arms....and God was telling me to say something to the people....

now those of you who have read my testimony know that this song is kind of sentimental in a way because this song is the song that i got saved to.

the lyrics
"there is a God who loves me
who wraps me in His arms
that is the place where i'm changed
and that's where i belong"
reminded me of my salvation, my testimony, where i was before christ...i remembered feeling rejected, broken and lost...i remembered my sin with drugs, my struggles with suicidal thoughts, my shame ...i remembered the story of the prodigal son...."while he was still A LONG WAYS OFF" i remembered that i didn't meet Jesus half-way....i couldn't make it half-way....i remembered what God said to me

"son i love you, i will always love you,i will love you when no one else loves you...I will love you, even when you don't love yourself"

and the night was awesome, people were getting into worship and it was amazing

and i remember at the end of the last song we sang "for you are holy"...and there was a high note that i couldn't hit with my voice, so when we got to that point i just stopped singing...


...and it was absolutely beautiful...i heard the people singing, connecting with God, worshiping God...and i broke down..cause that was the one thing i really wanted...to see people being changed by God's unconditional love...


wow and there is alot more so umm...i guess tune in next time...cause i didn't expect this one to be so long lol..

you know what i've noticed

when i feel really small...it's helps to know that God is bigger than anything i'm facing....



...kinda like when a little kid runs to his dad because his dad knows everything



yeah...alot like that.

You make it difficult (figure it out)

This is the lyrics to a song i wrote...hopefully i can record it and get it up soon...

it might be a little different

From the start, you shine beautifully
your running through my mind, constantly
still there is one question bugging me
is this....destiny

don't blame me
don't you see
i'm still trying to

figure things out
figure things out
figure things out

i'm just trying to
figure things out
figure this out
figure you out

cause you
make it difficult to sleep at night and
you
make it difficult to think about anything else

Michigan will always be the glove that holds my heart
even when we are miles apart
our paths only God can choose
with that in mind, we can't loose

don't blame me
don't you see
that i'm still trying to

figure things out
figure things out
figure things out

i'm just trying to

figure things out
figure it out
figure you out

cause you
make it difficult to sleep at night
and you
make it difficult to think about anything
you
make difficult for me to breathe
and you make it difficult to see anyone else for me

you are beautiful
you are wonderful
you make it difficult to see anyone else for me

you are beautiful
you are wonderful
you make it difficult to see anyone else for me
so wont you stay with me

don't blame me
don't you see
that i'm still trying to

figure things out
figure things out
figure things out

i'm just trying to
figure things out
figure it out
figure you out

cause you
make it difficult to sleep at night
and you
make it difficult to think about anything
you
make difficult for me to breathe
and you make it difficult to see anyone else for me