I'm done...

so I've decided to stop being stubborn...and this is step one out of like 29374923874298379243 it will take me to get to a point where I'm not stubborn anymore...but this is it...


so like almost forever ago (i'm not sure how long it's been) i felt like God was calling me to ministry...and i always assumed it was music, but i've realized that it's not.

I feel the calling to be a youth pastor...and honestly i've kinda been stubborn...and for many different "reasons" too...

1. i'm scared...and this branches into like 3597 0437 different categories, but the number one thing i'm afraid of is that my parents won't support me in it because...let's face it...the job market for youth pastors isn't all that great, and then obviously i'm afraid that i might somehow misguide or mislead people, not intentionally of course but idk...

2. i'm doubtful...i mean...can God really use ME to be a youth pastor...i'm not the most articulate person on the planet, and on top of that, every other word i say is either 'like' or 'um', and i'm not uber-duber tall and handsome like most of the youth pastors you see out there

3. i'm ignorant...the best word i could think of was ignorant...i just don't know what to do or even how to become a 'youth pastor' like to i go to school and say "ok i'm Pastor JD now, time to find a job as a youth pastor", i know you have to be ordained but i don't necessarily know how to do that


So i guess that's my 3 excuses/reasons for being stubborn and i know 3 easy verses to help me ....i just need to have them in my heart and not just my head.

1. Joshua 1:9
"Have not I commanded thee? Be strong and of a good courage; be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: for the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest. "

2. Philipians 4:13
"I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me."

3. Proverbs 3:5
"Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding"


sometimes the answers are in my head...but i guess i don't really believe them until they are put to the test..

What do I know?

'Que sais-je?' or 'What do I know'

That's how the French writer Michel de Montaigne would start his works. I learned this the other day in my English class, and I found it inspiring.

so I guess that's the direction i want to take this blogging hobby...i'm gunna blog about what i know...

so JD what do you know...

well (and this is shocking) but i actually know alot...too much to put in just one blog...so i'm gunna start with obviously the most important thing...

and that's not neccisarily 'what i know' but it's more 'who i know'

my testimony talks about my salvation, and that is awesome...but i want to make a post about Jesus...

so i'm gunna start with the basics

I know Jesus took my place on the cross and died for my sins, rose again 3 days later, freed me from sin, and one day He's gunna come back and show the devil who's boss..

well how do i know this...by faith, or by fact?...

actuallly it's faith and personal expierence...

you see, if i'm going to tell my testimony from my standpoint i start with Battlecry '06 but...if i start from Jesus' standpoint then i start alot earlier...

when i was in 6th grade my school closed down...so my parents were going to enroll me in Light and Life Christian Academy...but they were full...so instead they were going to enroll me in Stout Public School...and as my mom was filling out the paperwork for Stout, the principal of Light and Life called and said that even though the 7th grade class was full, they would still take me....

So that's where i met a freind who invited me to FGT... and i went because i was talking with a couple of the people there and they actually treated me like a human being (sad but true) and i wasn't really involved untill they asked me to play guitar for the youth...and i was like...umm...i'm not that good...but there was somthing that was telling me to do it...so i did...

i told someone at school that i was playing for a church the convo went somthing like this
me:"i play guitar for my church"
other kid: "do even know how to play guitar"
me:"yeah i have a book of like 300 chords or something"
other kid: "dude, you need like a beginner book, your not even good"
(btw...i still play today)

he was right...i knew one chord...(it was em7...but the book had it wrong anyway) but the good thing is that it kept me in the church

i know what you're thinking "JD you were playing guitar on stage and you weren't even saved" honestly...yeah i wasn't serious about God at all untill battlecry

and i remember the only reason i went to battlecry is because a girl was going and i had a crush on her back in the day lol...

and there i met with a real God and now my life is changed....

and so this story reveals one of my favorite things about God....that is He always makes a way for people...i know i didn't see it before but now i see that this whole time everything was set up by God...which is inspiring

even if you don't believe in God...just imagine...the one who spoke the entire earth into exsitence, the one who created every individual person....called me BY MY NAME...

Yahweh....The Great I AM, said..."I WANT JOSHUA DAVID WAYT TO BE MY SON AND I WANT TO TELL HIM I LOVE HIM!"...and He made a way...

Luke 5 has a story of a leper that comes to Jesus and says "Lord, if you are willing, you can make me clean" and Jesus said to him "I AM willing"... That is grace...undeserved favor....

so let me tell you what i know...i know Love, i know Grace, i know Forgiveness, i know Freedom,
i know God...

and i'm horrible at telling people about Jesus...for various reasons...i don't want to offend someone, i don't want people to think i'm weird, or watever other reason my flesh decideds to come up with...just pray that i have the strength to stand